but they forgot,

whole world blaming yohan stans who couldnt accept his new group but none thought about the feelings of these people. you dont know how much heartbreaks and crying we (me) went through after jan 6; you dont know how difficult was it to hold on without knowing whats gonna happen next, you dont know how does it feel to watch back old contents again and again just to hold on; you don't know how does it feel when you could only feel closer to your idol through magazine interviews only. you dont know how sad is it to see your friends you knew started leaving one by one.

you get happy for any simple contents of him; you stay up for him; without knowing when is the end coming. the end where you can finally see the rainbow together with your idol.

and suddenly you get a news that you will be seeing him with some random ppl you dont even know; suddenly you are forced to like ppl you have zero interest in; you were confident that you could give him the best if he's coming out alone again but suddenly everything crushed.

ppl start forcing you and blaming you on every single thing you do; ppl start telling you that its your fault if you can't 'unconditionally' like yohan, ppl tell you this and that; but ppl forget, fangirling/ fanboying is about gaining happiness as well. people who poured in everything they could, do not deserved to be call fake fans just because they refused to fake their feelings to accept whats going on. you have no idea what happened so you don't have any rights to judge as well. 

just like this post is written because i feel like that. because its about me, and not about you.